I cant do this shit.
No matter i try it doesnt work.
All the times we had,
They dont just dissappear.
They eat away at my heart && my life.
They are like a neverending disease
That has no cure, no help.
No matter how hard I try nothing happens.
I try to act normal
Like nothing ever happened.
But i only make you uncomfortable.
So all i can do is try,
Try to change.
Try to leave, all I want is a normal life.
One without pain, one without suffering,
A life where I can trust someone for once
Once in my life when i wont have to worry.
Worry about who is going to hurt me next,
Worry about how much it is going to hurt this time.
Well guess what,
I am done,
Done with this shit,
All the times all they bring back is the pain,
&& how you went behind my back.
So I am sorry,
Sorry that I fucking care and that I love you.
And Im sorry that I cant move on,
That I still cant deal with it.
Im sorry, and Im done.
I say that all the time, but this time,
I will try harder, harder than ever before to finally be over.
Over you, and over this.
And maybe, just maybe, be finally happy again.